The other day I mentioned to my hubby that while I was at the womens shelter we took turns picking out music in the large dining area next to open kitchen area. One evening we were helping with cooking and preparing for the family style evening meal. One of the girls put in a CD and we were sort of dancing in place as we did our food prep.
I was at the counter inside the kitchen making a huge salad with two women helping me. A song came on and I went rubbery and dropped what I was holding and started crying. Actually it turned out to be a cleansing for me because I had been holding back my emotions until that happened.
Hubby and I would play our CDs in the car and we sang together to the songs. Some songs we sang as loud as we could. This was one of them. This song was in a way "our song". We never called it that but we were instantly pulled together when this song played. If we were in different rooms and one of us played this, we ran to be together and sing it together. So this song was so much part of our relationship.
We haven't been singing in the car since summer of 2008. After the shelter I was in a little apartment of my own but would be with hubby almost every day for a few hours. We were each working on our getting healthy and also we were working on our marriage. There was never a time we would let go of the marriage but we were being cautious and working through so many things before we would live together again. We both had issues and for us this was a blessing to have time to face things and become stronger as individuals which then helped the strength of the marriage.
So a few days after I mentioned the song incident hubby reached out to me in a special way. I was sitting at my computer in the living room and from hubby's studio room I listened to his playing his guitar and he was playing his heart out. It was great. When he finished playing guitar, on high volume he played our song. I was concentrating on writing a post but the song reached me immediately and I turned my chair around and as I was getting out of my chair hubby was hurrying to me from the other room. Hubby took me in his arms and we danced in our living room. We both had tears and it was an awesome and loving and joyful dance to "our song". I was exactly where I feel at home, in hubby's arms.