March 02, 2011
There have been times I have been alone, and I was not lonely.
And while in relationships I felt alone and lonely.
Now I am in a good relationship, and do not feel lonely.
Is the difference my spouse? Perhaps.
Or is my environment making a difference?
Most of my life I worked at a job. The daily grind. Early to rise. Invest most of my energy in a job to get paid to support a family and round and round. It is peaceful and pleasant to live on my own schedule. Without a boss.
But I believe the reason I have been able to overcome depression and dissociation is the hard work in a codependency program and a year and a half of aggressive weekly therapy sessions.
Being able to look at my image in the mirror, being satisfied with who I am, and liking the woman I am now have brought peace to my life. No longer needing to struggle to be what I perceived others expected of me, I have come to understand that having what I want is not selfish. Doing the things I like to do just for myself is healthy.
I wish you a healthy life too. Look in the mirror and give that lovely person a smile.
Posted by CiCi